Amazing grace

how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me. I once was lost,but now am found, was blind but now I see....

How is it that I have missed so much up til this time in my life, about God that is, and now I see it all unfolding before me.It's like reading an excellent book or watching a good movie. I can't wait to see how my story, God's story, unfolds!

I once had no relationship ,that I could FEEL, with Christ. Now as I tell my protestant friends, yes, we Catholics have a close personal relationship with Jesus. We love Him so much we Eat Him! As far as feelings though, not so much. When HE found ME, well that is a different story, a love story. I love Him so MUCH.

Now His Dad is another matter all together. I have always had plenty of feelings about Him. Fear, shame, anger, distrust....somehow I knew love was supposed to be in there, at the top of the list as a matter of fact. I remained confused and worried but also knew there was more to it.

I once prayed to God to let me know His son. This was a long time in coming though. I came to an understanding of my faith through many back doors. First through my guradian angel and the saints. Then through the Holy Spirit. Oh how I adore the Spirit!!! I was aware of the Blessed Mother, but she was always way beyond my reach. Jesus, well, I never dared even mention his name. With great fear and trembling, I asked God, who I always talked to, despite my reservations,to give me a personal realtionship, to let me Know Christ. He did just that.

Now as I look to the son, I see what a loving Father God must be to give us his most precious son. As a sacrifice! Such wholeness and love and innocence to pay the price for all of us. The mind boggles.

I was listening to a program today about the Trinity. It occurs to me, that loving the Spirit, loving the Son ,means I do also love the Father. No one can come to the Father except through the Son. How wise and wonderful that God wanted me to know Him as well as his son, so he did answer my prayer. He knew I was terrified of His awesome self, so he sent me a savior I could talk to.

I am in Awe of creation. Who can look at the majestic mountains or hear the rolling seas or feel the mist of a thundering waterfall or hold a newborn baby and NOT feel awe and wonder. That feeling I can understand. I can start with awe and wonder and a profound respect for the Artist that painted this beautiful world. That God himself came down from heaven, as a baby! Talk about trust!

He gave me life, he created the world, he sent me his son. That is amazing.Amazing love. Amazing grace!